Couldn't sleep due to some troubles which i do not want to share here but all is solved.
msg CK love at random timings? hahaha
CK wanted to catch a movie. I miss her lotssss so yeaa met up with her.
who wouldn't miss their own gf/bf. such a DUHHH. hahaha
Someone wore a dress today seyy ^^
sooo cuteeee~ zomg. make my heart skip a beat when i saw her.
just like the first time when i saw her :)
ok enough wait someone nose grow bigger then sneeze till all the mucus go to me *you should know wait i mean* ewwww~ AAHAHAHAH!!
In town i was stopped by this random women promoting cadbury chocalate. I had to do a eyebrow dancing thing. Its a dare/competition thingy? hahaha
I Don't Know why i agreed but hey i got more balls than you local loser guys to actually do something infront of the public and my own gf just to get 2 free movie tickets to Harry potter and the half blood prince! Yes and i got it 2 free tickets. save my 20 dollar. hahaha & also CK wanted to Harry Potter. So i guess she is a fan? well, i'll do anything to make her happy even act like a fool in public so that we can be the first few to watch Harry Potter. :) I love you.
Ok so went to cine to get tickets to Haunting in connecticut. Wow scary shit.
The ghost. fullermark got tattoo siolzxzxzx. Overall the story not that bad ah.
CK and me watched like two scared idiots covering each other eye's at such horror scenes.
But the ending was kinda predictable. Like those fairytales where there is a "they live happily ever after, THE END" kind of ending -.-"
Afterwards, pool at lucky plaza. ZOMG i lost all the way. -.-""""""
im getting worser and worser. hahaha
Then send CK home and tadaaa im here blogging again :)
aitee good night people

Labels: Little Nicky (y)

Today is the start of a very relaxing weekend(hopefully)
RP is getting to be lamer and lamer by the day. how do you expect to contain the virus in a air-con school filled with random students like me and you? - . -"
Ouh well, end of UT2 paper for the week. more coming my way soon. very soon.
But someone's test finish already and now out hurraying -.-" jealous~

A night wasted... could have gone out with some jackasses. But no...
The dudes wanted to go for a smoke, sheesha to be precised but nahhh... didn't meet up with them. As I know if i were to go they will force me to take some. that's one of the reason why they are called jackasses. hahaha. So just followed sydney to Andy's gig which was at Ngee Ann Poly.
The trip there was hell. -.-
First of all me and sydney went to the wrong track of the MRT and only realised when we were at Yishun -.-" Next, The bus stop at Clementi was packed with people. Even in the bus. ZOMG!
&& gosh the traffic was damn congested can?
So nevermind stand there with Sydney and ouh yea found some of our friends onboard that bus too, Sharina,Aidil and this one guy(new friend) and guess Sydney can't take his eyes off from sec schl girl.. cheyy cheyyy~ hhahahaha jk2 :P
Fast forward to N.P, and zoom to Andy's gig. the thing is we have to pay 5 bucks - . -
for some people who know me. i am a cheapo at times. As if you all never had that moment before -.-" so we never went in as the gig was held in a lecture theater room. wth?? 0.o and not much people were inside. So slacked at "the makan place" played CS and went home.
see,friday night wasted play CS like noobster. AHAHAHA

Maybe, im going to make a new band soon. Me the guitarist as usual.
Alicia as the singer. Ryon as the keyboardist. Gonna look for more band members to join this band. Not sure yet of what genre as we all listen to a wide variety of them. hahaha. maybe HXC?
Alternative? Punk rock? ouh well hopefully this works.

Labels: There's never a night i'd never say those words to you.

Ryan Cabrerra-True used to be the song that described me on how i truly felt for you. All my life i have been waiting this is true* :) 4th July 2009 is the official date that i am going to remember forever. The plans, patience, love, care, understanding, misunderstandings, laughter, etc2 and finally I'm officially attached to someone i truly love, Charmaine kwok shu hui. Fullermark, that was a mouthful. hahah!
How we met? that's for me to know for you people to find out. :)
Two different people from two different world and background somehow met and changed each other's lifes. Won't forget all those moments spent..
I can't believed i asked her under the fireworks. well it was a nice idea but i didn't know it was soo predictable -.-" gosh I'm losing my touch. hahaha. But ouh well the timing and all was perfection.
Especially spending that night with her. Just her.

some pictures of the day...
*ehem*gotta admit CK's cam make me look good :p












fullermark. but funny thing the fireworks was damn messy on this pic. hahah!

Whenever I close my eyes
I see u waving good byes
And As I stood there still
Did u know how I feel?

The memories of when you’re here
Of how u’ve been such a blurr
& How cute u have been
With that smiling scene

I tried to tell myself
That u didn’t actually leave
And when I open my eyes
And forget all those goodbyes

The photographs that we take
And when we went to that lake
A part of me that I’ve gave
So that u will feel safe
(Without me)
Chorus:
[So let the good times roll
And those fun times we will hold
I can’t deny this
As I truly feel the Miss] (X2)

The memories of when you’re here
Of how u’ve been such a blurr
& How cute u have been
With that smiling scene

Your voice and actions played in mind
like that time when you were blind
I can’t deny how cute u have been
With that little smiling scene

So let the good times roll
And those fun times we will hold
I can’t deny this
As I truly feel the Miss

(Your voice and actions played in mind)
(So let the good times roll)


And as I stood there still
Did you know how I feel?

My very first song made and sung on April 10(good friday)
(kinda feel proud of my handy work. hehe =p)
Most would say it may be just sweet lyrics for a girl or someone special.
Yes, sweet words with bitterness in it.
A bittersweet song. a song actually made when that someone special had to leave you.
Temporary or a final bubbye. but for my case, temporary :)(hopefully =/ )
Only the one true girl who have spend the days with me would understand what every word and line meant. A song full of emotions. Sadness,happiness,good times,funny times,etc2. Label me EMO for all you want but a song has to come from the heart to make it sincere for the person. so let the lyrics say it all out.

This song would not have been possible without you. thank you for the collage, thank you for your care, thank you for your smile and one sided dimple(hahah! =p),thank you for the good and funny times, thank you for everything :)
Gonna miss you when your in Aussie.

Labels: XOXO

Finally i have grown to an 18 year old.
Am i a man now? or am i still just a boy? 0.o
well, i'm not a boy not yet a man =D
Gonna enrol in BTT soon and soon study hard to ger a car license. BOOYEAH! :D
thanks to those who turn up on the 2nd june(Jacq,jenny,sammy,sydney and ofcourse dear ck :D). felt kinda touched especially seeing sydney. my gay partner. AHHAAHAHA!
ok no -.-"
Felt super touched by the gift CK has given me.
Its not a gift no one could buy anywhere. Its more than i ever asked for.
Almost shed a tear but then thanks to jenny's face it didn't hahaha!

To CK: It's not just a gift that anyone could make. :)

It's super meaningful and its priceless no once could take it from me.
well i did almost misplace it in esplanade. TSK! hahaha.
so hang around at city hall,esplanade. camwhore and cambasted.
shall try to upload pics. should try something new :D

Today, is just another new day spent with sydney and CK.
well met CK first coz i wanted to survey on some new shoes :)
Too bad KY cant join us becoz of some problems i think?
hahahaha and also... well i cant state it here.
ask sydney for more information.
hahahah!!
ok gtg shall try to post more next time.
and also i would like to thank those people who made my day, people who wished me, my family, and strangers who idk who also wished me. hahaha
chiaoz

Its been months or if i can remember correctly a year?
A lot of stuff happened. Too many to remember. The Sweet, the fun, the ugly, the horrible, the funny, the heart breaks, the love, the etc2[well you know what i mean,too much to state ;) ]
well to summarize what i have been doing this year,
*Finally i'm studying my own course which is DIP in Aerospace Avionics. (refresh all of u lazy minds -.-")
*Become the student leader and be a facilitator for day. (can't believe a person like myself being a facilitator ^^V)
*make tons of new friends. =D
*OUH YEAH!! cant forget, made tagged.com account and met CK *wink* hehe.
*Made my very first song and sang it CK(with a crappy voice like duhh)
*Met new classmates.
*improving on my DJ skills
*lepak,lepak,lepak,lepak,lepak
* FINALLY TURNING 18 IN LESS THAN 24 HOURS!!!!

& to top it off, 2009 is a brand new year for me and now i am seeing life in a new perspective, a new purpose in life, maybe i have already found i am looking for. well, that's life. everyone is trying their best to search for the one that they are seeking of. Most people don't know what they are searching for until it comes right at you or when you finally realize and started to regret but ouh well, that's a whole new different story altogether.

Seriously, Alot has happened ever since i stop using blogger.
& as i sit down at the corner of my bed with my guitar in hand. All the flashbacks gets to me one by one. All sorts of emotions runs through me now. Am i doing the right thing? Is this what my life is going to be? will i ever find my happy ending? I,zulfeqar, had been on the. edge of life. wanting to give up. surrending my soul to god but i did'nt. There's so much in life that i have not experienced, seen, touch. A foolish boy i am. I agree. Why am i doing this i ask myself when im on the edge of life. what is the meaning of life? can someone tell me? what do I live for? I'm not a kid anymore. I have to learn to stand on my own two feet. Fight for your right. Don't let anyone step all over you. Take responsibility. Sometimes, im just too afraid to grow up. I guess, as a guy i have the responsibility to take care of my love ones even if it means me giving up on myself. ouh well im gonna stop typing like an emo-kid now =DD

looking on the bright side, I can finally enrol for car license in less than 24 hours!! COOL OR WHAT!? hahahaha. omg just having the thought of me holding a car license and finally driving a car. no need to keep waiting for a bus or mrt. bounce from marina to woodland just so that you have a sit and can send people home *wink*&& i still hold my word. you're still going to be my first passenger. you should know yourself aite. hehehe. ok excitements aside

guess this is going to be the end of my first post. gosh i feel like typing more but tomorrow is a new day and i can type more :)

P.S: i hate this feeling. almost every song i listen to reminds me of you and the things we did and it makes me miss you && i have to start coming to class early. -.-"

"Why does tonight have to end?
why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favorite parts
we'll skip the goodbyes. If i had it my way. I'd turn the car around
and run away,just you and I.~"

ok lets start with today shall we.
ouh wait first of all, happy birthday birthday boy. =DD
hope you like the cake and present we bought for u. now you have to bring that doll every single day for 7 days. everywhere you go you must carry it with you.
hahaha.. birthday boy got caked in the face..
woooo~!! hahahaha... poor guy.=) hope you enjoy your day and get what you wish for.
we also used our laptops to wish him. it was like each laptop had one alphabet. so it was like
H-A-P-P-Y 17TH B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y D-A-R-R-E-N
but the happy turned ou Y-A-P-P-H hahahaha sillyclassmates. i forgot who they were. hahaha

well after that went for EMP.
gosh there were like 12 teams presenting the same thing all over again. presenting on the DJ set and how to be a world known DJ. while waiting for all the teams to finish presenting, did my RJ,quiz and evaluation. started at 5 finished at 8. how great. the seniors perform by playing numb by linking park. cool. they played it with a vox,bass,guitar, and the dj set. nice mixture of all =DD

ok now currently listening to BLOW ME AWAY BY BREAKING BENJAMIN. cause songs determine my moods =) for those who knw this song, good for you. for those who don't if you want try listening to it. if not, well, its your life. hahaha
taking care readers. have a nice day ahead.